Jane's Normal Day - 23rd January 2018

Jane paused and sighed for a while this morning.
Dear Tuesday..Please be nice to me today.

"Woke up early this morning, yet still late for work.

Okay Jane..its okay..
I told myself. You'll work this up. Think positive Jane.

Again..the positive angel in my head whistling.
Ohh kids..only if you know how much I love all of you.

It is okay for me..As long as you are happy and safe..
Doesn't matter if I'll be late for life.

Just as when I thought that you guys are doing great in school, I received frustrating call from your 'Mak'.
Ooo my dear son.. Life doesn't have to be nice all the time to you.
You are the one who should be nice to yourself, to others.You have to adjust well too with this world..my dear son.

To understand others and not just wanting to be understand.
To love and not just wanting to be love.
To speak good things and not just wanting to hear good speech.
To respect and not just wanting to be respect.

Everything has to be earned my child.. It includes good manners and due respect.
You're still a child, yet I'm terribly worried.

What should we do Jane??? Seek help Jane..
Where? From whom? How?

Learn Jane..Learn about parenting more.
I've did!! Not enough Jane..Push yourself more..

Ooo Allah..Guide me please.
Ooo Jane..work hard Jane. Pray hard more Jane.

Jane's Normal Day by RHL

Jane looked over the window..
Sipping a cup of coffee while trying to release herself of the tense this morning.

"It is Monday morning today..
Quiet, serene at the beginning..
Felt positive to start a new day..Finished making breakfast and prepared the kids for school..
Felt relief..Done mum's job for this morning..

Feeling positive about today and what would comes next will fall into plan.
Yes..I really wish for it to happen as what I dream of.

My kids bid goodbye for their school and I prepared to send the youngest to her pre-school.
I kissed her cheeks and said farewell for few hours..Until this evening sayang..

I was driving when I picked up the call....@@@@@@.....
I thought it would be all for today. Ignored the feeling and moved on with positive thinking.

Few minutes later, reached office and settled the 'job' and tap the 'send' button on the keyboard.
Praying it will be just fine..everything will fall nicely in place as I've plan. Hope this would be enough.

Woosh..the crazy wind came..and I was puzzled myself on how naive I have been this instant.
Another ring on my cell came along soon after that...

As I said normal things that happen every day and any other time is here once again.
Here we go Heart...embrace yourself.

Tense voice, usual arguments about how I have caused trouble and not being understanding and thoughtful of others..
As usual.. it ended with me keeping silent after trying to speak a few words.

I questioned myself..again. And again.. Like how I did for each passing days since..
It hurts..like always..

Will it be forever?? The normal day??
I am not hoping for it anymore.."




**Don't lose hope Jane. Be strong.**
                                                                                                                                             -rhl;01/2018-